my friend forever

i just wanted to say i love u, my friends.

みんなに「ありがとう」って言いたい。
あたしが今のあたしであるのはみんなのおかげだし、
本当にあたしは友達に恵まれてるなぁ～って思う。
友達のその一言一言がものすごいパワーを持ってるってことは
あたしがよく知ってるから。

友達っていいなぁ・・・。
みんなだぁぁぁいすきっ☆☆

i think i love feeling the mother nature...
maybe it's just because i'm a "country-side" girl.
but still.....
one of my favorite things in summer is seeing a firefly.
nowadays, it's quite hard to find it.
i have a good memory about that,too.
back to highschool, when i walked with my ex at night,
we found a point of light. he got sooooooo scared that
he hid himself behind my back. it was a little firefly.
haha. what a....
let's just say he's no hero.

at the same time,i love being in the city,too.
went to NYC and i couldn't stop being amazed.
it was just a HUGE city.
in addition, many people are dreaming of living there.
i wanna go there again....in near future.

uhm...i just realized that this post is quite a pointless.lol.
so i'm off to prepare for the graduation.

me against the world

artist:2pac

I got nuttin to lose
It's just me against the world
Stuck in the game
Me against the world baby

Can you picture my prophecy?
Stress in the city, the cops is hot for me
The projects is full of bullets, the bodies is droppin
There ain't no stoppin me
Constantly movin while makin millions
Witnessin killings, leavin dead bodies in abandoned buildings
Carries to children cause they're illin
Addicted to killin and the appeal from the cap peelin
Without feelin, but will they last or be blasted?
Hard headed bastard
Maybe he'll listen in his casket -- the aftermath
More bodies being buried -- I'm losing my homies in a hurry
They're relocating to the cemetary
Got me worried, stressin, my vision's blurried
The question is will I live? No one in the world loves me
I'm headed for danger, don't trust strangers
Put one in the chamber whenever I'm feelin this anger
Don't wanna make excuses, cause this is how it is
What's the use unless we're shootin no one notices the youth
It's just me against the world baby

Me against the world
It's just me against the world
It's just me against the world
Me against the world
Cause it's just me against the world baby
Me against the world
I got nuttin to lose
It's just me against the world baby
I got nothing to lose

Could somebody help me? I'm out here all by myself
See ladies in stores, Baby Capone's, livin wealthy
Pictures of my birth on this Earth is what I'm dreamin
Seein Daddy's semen, full of crooked demons, already crazy
and screamin I guess them nightmares as a child
had me scared, but left me prepared for a while
Is there another route? For a crooked Outlaw
Veteran, a villian, a young thug, who one day shall fall
Everday there's mo' death, and plus I'm dough-less
I'm seein mo' reasons for me to proceed with thievin
Scheme on the scheming and leave they peeps grieving
Cause ain't no bucks to stack up, my nuts is backed up
I'm bout to act up, go load the Mac up, now watch me klacka
Tried makin fat cuts, but yo it ain't workin
And Evil's lurking, I can see him smirking
when I gets to pervin, so what?
Go put some work in, and make my mail, makin sales
Risking 25 with a 'L', but oh well

Me against the world
With nuttin to lose
It's just me against the world
Ooh yeah.. oooh-ooooh
It's just me against the world baby
Me against the world
I got nuttin to lose
It's just me against the world
It's just me against the world baby
With nuttin to lose
It's just me against the world baby
Me against the world, hoahhh
Me against the world
I got nuttin to lose
It's just me against the world baby

With all this extra stressin
The question I wonder is after death, after my last breath
When will I finaly get to rest? Through this supression
they punish the people that's askin questions
And those that possess, steal from the ones without possesions
The message I stress: to make it stop study your lessons
Don't settle for less - even the genius asks-es questions
Be grateful for blessings
Don't ever change, keep your essence
The power is in the people and politics we address
Always do your best, don't let the pressure make you panic
And when you get stranded
And things don't go the way you planned it
Dreamin of riches, in a position of makin a difference
Politicians and hypocrites, they don't wanna listen
If I'm insane, it's the fame made a brother change
It wasn't nuttin like the game
It's just me against the world

Me against the world
Nuttin to lose
It's just me against the world baby
Me against the world
Got me stuck in the game
It's just me against the world
I'd be ashamed to lose
It's just me against the world baby
Me against the world

That's right
I know it seem hard sometimes but uhh
Remember one thing
Through every dark night, there's a bright day after that
So no matter how hard it get, stick your chest out
Keep your head up, and handle it

Me against the world

happy birthdaymy friends in May

happy birthday ヤグ!!
たまには連絡するぞｗ
そっちも連絡ちょうだいねぇ～ｗｗｗ

happy birthday りえ!!
ってゆーかこのＢＬＯＧを見てないと思う（笑）

happy birthday ミキ!!
やべぇ～最近ずっと話してないよねぇ～。


みんな２２歳だねぇ～。ゾロ目だね。
なんかおめでたいことあるといいなぁ～ｗｗｗｗｗ

ack....

i NEED a friend who can speak and understand japanese near here.

i'm a japanese. i was born in japan and have spoken japanese
for 21 years. it's really hard to put myself in a non-japanese environment.

sometimes, so stressful.
nobody can help this.

another day

i have so many things to do that i'm very lazy and sleeeeeeepy...

hahahahahaha....*sigh*

i don't even care about make up.
noooooooooo goooooood!!
be a lady.....megumi.

yes, everything gives me hard time...

omg, new york was awesome.
qt with my nounours.

i still have many things to do.
i'm such a......sigh.


special thx to my nounours to
treat, to support and to care
about me.



welcome back to the reality....

so....my unexpected trip will start.

"misfortunes never come singly..."






i'm going to NYC, accidentally.
but it's officially my first time to go there,
and i think i need it.
so let's just take things optimistically, and i just wanna enjoy it.
hope things will work out all right...

"We could never learn to be brave and patient if there were only joy in the world."

-Helen Keller

"The Future is no place to place your better days"

- Dave Matthews

"The past. . . the way I see it, you can either run from it or learn from it"

~Rafikki in "The Lion King"

there is a will, there is a way

ふと気づくと最近ものすごい頭をフル回転させて物事を
考えてる気がする。内容よりもこんなに頭で何を考えてるんだろうって
自分で自分のことを不思議に思う。いいことじゃないことは確か。
真剣なこと。きっと自分にとってこれからの一年がすごくすごく
重要なものになっていくっていうことを一生懸命自覚しよう、
もういい大人なんだから成長しようって思ってる証拠。
自分で自分にプレッシャーをかけながらやってきたこの一年間。
本当に色々なことを学んだ、吸収した。
自分でこの道を選び、同じ歳の子とは全く違う方向へと歩き出したあたし。

家族や友達や大切な人・・・多くの人に支えられ、応援されここまでやってきた。

「えぇ～かったるぅ～。めんどくさいし。」
昔ならこうやって言って自分に向き合おうとしてなかった気がする。
どこからか恐怖感が湧いてきて、ずっと避けてきた。
ちょっとそのつけがまわってきたのかな。


頭いたい。
ちょっと自分を休ませてあげてもいいかな。

crisis

decision, decision, decision.....

tired

tired....

life is truly hard.
back to a year ago, i had a huge expectation of
my new page of my life.

although i know that the result is not all to be
able to be judged if the thing was good or not,
who does accept and admire the process to achieve
my goal?
although everybody may understand that i strived,
who does include the process when the thing has
to be judged YES or NO?

Do striving, doing ur best,and effort become nothing
when u can't achieve ur goal?

i hope NOT.....

i just wanted to make a quick post:)

omg, i shaved his beard....!!!









that's CRAZY!!

where can nice girls meet nice guys?

according to the article,
nice girls can meet nice guys at....

1.record shop

2.a jazz club

3.an electronics/computer store

4.a cafe

5.the thrift store

6.a high-end department store

7.a health food place

......let's go.

note to u: u can go there but u have to be a nice girl:p

あいたくて　あいたくて　あいたくて・・・

今日もわたげをとばします。

たんぽぽはるか

何故かこの詩が今日は頭からはなれませんでした。なんでかなぁ～？

*11*

ok ok ok...

Je suis désolée:p

guess what this building is!!?










it's a library!! so coooooooooooooooooooooool!!

また新しい週がはじまる・・・。
あたしは日曜日があまり好きじゃないし月曜日も好きじゃない。
新しい週ってあたしはあえてやった！！とかも思わないし、
新たな気持ちで頑張ろうとか最近思わない。
何をがんばればいいのか微妙にわからなくなってきてるんだよね。
胸の中がすごくどーーーんとして苦しい時もあるし。
何故か最近自分の時間がすごく限られてるように感じて、
必要もなく焦る。
自分はどこの方向へ向かってるのか今わからない。

今あたしは迷子になってます。

You made me laugh some

You made me cry some too

You sent me off into a world of pain

And made me someone new

You made all kinds of promises

But only some came true

Now I know you need me more than I need you

To think I used to love you

For reasons I don't know

You polished up my halo

And I dirtied up your soul

I sure had a good time

But we both know I can't stay

To think I used to love you but I'm leaving anyway

You know I'm not perfect

And I tried to make you see

Somehow you though of everything

But you didn't think about me

Lies and disappointment

Makes your world go round

It's to late save me so you might as well come down

the second day of marketing management 1...

it was only OK because my english is not completed.
i wonder how funner this class becomes if i understand more.
i would learn more information and this class would
be more valuable.

while taking the class, somehow one question came up to my mind;
are teachers here funnier than ones in japan??

well,the most of the reasons i felt so come from differences of
culture and sense of humor, i guess. in addition, i felt so
becuase i pay more attention to what a teacher says than before.
maybe they(teachers in japan) were talking same things.
maybe they were as funny as teachers here.

anyway, we're gonna have a group project,too.
it's gonna be fuuuuuuuuuuuun!!!
i'm a kind of excited:D
(a little wooohoooo!!)


*another update for japan*
５月５日は子供の日だよねぇ～。いいなぁいいなぁ。こっちとか
なぁぁぁぁんもないんですけど。日本は今ＧＷだよね。
golden weekとか・・・一体ダレが付けた名前なんだ？？
あぁ～チマキが食べたいです（笑）

a new lifestyle....

1.wake up
2.ready to go out
3.study
4.study
5.study
6.eat
7.study
8.study
9.study
10.take a shower
11.sleep

blah.

took my first class yesterday.
soooooo many things to do.
(many things=just study.)
called my mom. i wanna see my mom.

went to rippers last night and i had an incredibly enjoyable
experience there. muwahahahahahahahahahahhahahha!
fabulous.....