my star.

oh ya, she's hot.

i want u.

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.

Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,
and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance."
The night wind whirls in the sky and sings.

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.

I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
On nights like this, I held her in my arms.
I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.
She loved me, sometimes I loved her.
How could I not have loved her large, still eyes?

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.

To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her.
To hear the immense night, more immense without her.
And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass.
What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.

The night is full of stars and she is not with me.
That's all. Far away, someone sings. Far away.

My soul is lost without her.
As if to bring her near, my eyes search for her.
My heart searches for her and she is not with me.
The same night that whitens the same trees.
We, we who were, we are the same no longer.

I no longer love her, true, but how much I loved her.
My voice searched the wind to touch her ear.
Someone else's. She will be someone else's. As she once
belonged to my kisses.
Her voice, her light body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, true, but perhaps I love her.
Love is so short and oblivion so long.
Because on nights like this I held her in my arms,

my soul is lost without her.
Although this may be the last pain she causes me,
and this may be the last poem I write for her.

あたしの人生クソです。

thank you for celebrating my bday guys...

omg, taking four courses is ridiculous so far...

読書の秋

いやぁモントリオールはindian summerを迎えているらしく、
とても暑い・・・ありえん。秋とはおもえん。
でももう立秋も迎えてしまってもう秋ですね。

最近日本語に対してとても寂しさと恋しさを持っており、
妹が持ってきてくれた文庫本を読みまくってます。
あたしの最近のオススメ

・ネバーランド　恩田 陸
・天使の卵　　　村上　由佳

これら、かなりいいっす。いやぁ～青春でさっぱりしてるけど
ほろ苦い・・・いいす。やっぱ日本語っていいっすｗ
みなさま機会があったらぜひぜひぜひお読みになって！

明日からは友達が送ってくれた村上春樹の新作（いや、あたし
遅れてる！？もう新作じゃないかも）のアフターダークを
読みます！！でも学校がはじまって、いやぁ～これらがかなり
きつくってねぇ～読めないかも（涙）いや、読むぞｗ

i got luv.

thx for much luv from u.
although i donno if its really nice, wait for my object, too:)

the end and the beginning.

a new perfume and
a new hair-style

new text books and
new note books

the new semester has started.
1. introduction to financial acct
2. introductory of management statistics
3. marketing management 2
4. survey of basic mathematics

it's been really productive days recently.
i think i've been enjoying this life style in MTL.


sometimes i have just realized that im no longer
a "learning-english student". im actually taking some courses
in the university and my grade at school shows that i have enough ability
to take classes as a "student". listening to what teachers say,
taking notes in the class, doing assignments,
and chatting with friends like normal students do.

....."it took long time to get here"

that's what i thought. 1 year and 5 months was sooooooo long and
one of the hardest period in my life. however, at the same time,
this period had made me truly strong and more independent.
so many things which i've never experienced happened....
i think more happenings will wait for me in the future.
but i think i can make it and go though it...somehow.


my heart is leaping with hopes and excitements.